I’m so lost 15th Feb 26

if Marcus was still with us, I would have up him to become the manager because he’s smarter, closer to me, more experienced, tank a lot of scolding, handle things more professionally. Fake or not I would say a little bit. But when he said things like half comms nvm as long sell and all makes me feel good to have him. Cat changed a lot, seeking attention whenever it’s bonus or recognition period. Yes she’s doing a lot of abit here and there but that doesn’t give her the right to be like this. Like crying & maybe being political I feel. Which is why I did not want to make her my manager, think about it Marcus join 1 year only and cat has been around for so long but why I decided so fast that Marcus should be the manager? Reason being, less drama & not so sensitive. But again Marcus also make a lot of mistake and forgetful. So everyone almost the same. But what’s needed in a manager? And who’s better to be a manager? Marcus. Professional Experienced Willing to do and tank even kana kp so much from me. Recently changed so much, I keep emo. Being a boss is so different People shy away from u People sit away from u People gossip about u Nobody wants to sit ur car. why because it’s all work with u But they don’t know that actually im just doing my job by facilitating everything to ensure that everyone have a job/ricebowl. End up what do I get in returned, being a LJ lang lo. I once prayed to guan yin Ma, pls give me the power to understand what others are thinking, now I feel it’s too much to handle. I rather be thick skin and not so understanding. Because people are such a dick. Im so broken inside, i feel betrayed whenever they don’t invite me for lunch, they sit away from me, they talk about me or whenever i come into office they stop talking and laughing. Like what’s wrong? Is it my fault to be a boss? Is it wrong for me to nag? It’s for ur own good, it’s for everybody’s good. When car is not sold, how? I bleed leh cb. Any solution to this? Hard yes? Or hard no. Fire somebody? Strengthen myself by doing what? Show them attitude? Or be even nicer to them. Sen np Fj np even though sometimes make mistakes Jen coming up a bit strong like tag team with cat to fk me up like that. What can I do? I’m just human facilitating only ensuring everything goes smoothly and I get my pay. I want to pamper the next person that comes in, hope the next person will be closed to me and think in my shoes. I hope next would be better. I find this hard to get thru. My mind just non stop thinking out loud. Now is 530am, I woke up with a stomach ache and emo.

6th Feb 2026

just came back from hokkaido after 10 days trip, honestly excited to meet the team. yesterday we went for dinner together, but all i get was rejection. people avoid sitting next to me. felt so lonely being a boss, this better pays me well. feeling a bit hit by this, does every boss encounter this kind of things?

13th Nov 2025

12th nov 10.26pm the passing of my father in law. im a little lost, i wished i could run away from my work and go back to visit and chill with him. but the answer is no, i need to run the sales because my full timer is not around, my finance is busy with her stuff. been trying to find a good full timer sales, but its so hard. been trying to find a good admin but its hard also. ask my friends out, all tell me OT or not free. wtf is happening in my life man.. visiting papa tomorrow. i feel really sad, he was very proud of me when he is around. even though naggy but watch me grow and always supportive of my videos. papa in law will always be missed.

29th Oct 2025

many things happen recently & i was breaking apart till this few days, got to collate and went thru my mind a little. 1) full timer marcus wants to resign but was swtich to part time. this case a little bit special, if its true, then i might have been bad for not giving him enough time to spend with the family. but my instincts are telling me another... 2) rental cars and cars sold recently keep breaking down, major isssues and etc. 3) cb wilson, hypocrite, keep telling me he will settle our cars, but end up making us lose money and wait for him to settle his other car first. simply bullying us. last but not least, papa in law has been sick recently n last week just visited him. wanted to visit him again this week but i was down with fever and cough. bad one! hope i can still make it to chat with him and interview him on his journey in life. has not been a smooth month for me with all these hard hits. not forgetting that pearlyn also wanted to leave. i hope what ive gone thru today makes me stronger. but if i have a choice, i wouldnt want to go thru these. really

15th sept 2024

Recently luck is not on my end, car break down & also 2 mother fucking dog 2 workshops. supreme fucking attitude problem, told me to support them with cars, end up don't prioritise us. 2ndly is choons, this cbk boss things never change say got change, nvm la want to earn abit more. After price is fixed already, try to say bullshit things & change the price after. then why not don't say price at all, straight away let people do already tok people ma. fucking dog. Thinking how to handle this kind of people, really train my patience man..

21st july 2024

went for badminton competition after 20 years! lose 2 straight games partnering 2 noobs. Thought can have a good game and some rally, but ended up wasting my time & being a clown. totally pissed. jio ed a so called friend to drink, ended up getting rejected and this person went to ask another person for a drink that's closed to me. WTF? What is this hypocrite agenda. Extremely disappointed, but i learned that everyone grows and will change. So from today on, i will toughen myself & learn to not expect and accept. On the side note, managed to sell 5 cars from my sales person, 1 of our highest achievement & record of all time. Good job to that lady! Many things have been happening lately, like office management issues & etc. I hope all these will cease & better tomorrow.

20th oct 2023

Don't know if i made the right decision to get this GTR. It's one of my dream to own this beast. Or maybe many fan boys dream to own one. Just sold away my M5, lose about $15k, a little bit irritated, further more i'm not so sure of this GTR condition. Praying and hoping that everything will run smoothly for the future. Looking at how the COE rises so much did give me some anxiety.