I’m so lost 15th Feb 26

if Marcus was still with us, I would have up him to become the manager because he’s smarter, closer to me, more experienced, tank a lot of scolding, handle things more professionally. Fake or not I would say a little bit. But when he said things like half comms nvm as long sell and all makes me feel good to have him. Cat changed a lot, seeking attention whenever it’s bonus or recognition period. Yes she’s doing a lot of abit here and there but that doesn’t give her the right to be like this. Like crying & maybe being political I feel. Which is why I did not want to make her my manager, think about it Marcus join 1 year only and cat has been around for so long but why I decided so fast that Marcus should be the manager? Reason being, less drama & not so sensitive. But again Marcus also make a lot of mistake and forgetful. So everyone almost the same. But what’s needed in a manager? And who’s better to be a manager? Marcus. Professional Experienced Willing to do and tank even kana kp so much from me. Recently changed so much, I keep emo. Being a boss is so different People shy away from u People sit away from u People gossip about u Nobody wants to sit ur car. why because it’s all work with u But they don’t know that actually im just doing my job by facilitating everything to ensure that everyone have a job/ricebowl. End up what do I get in returned, being a LJ lang lo. I once prayed to guan yin Ma, pls give me the power to understand what others are thinking, now I feel it’s too much to handle. I rather be thick skin and not so understanding. Because people are such a dick. Im so broken inside, i feel betrayed whenever they don’t invite me for lunch, they sit away from me, they talk about me or whenever i come into office they stop talking and laughing. Like what’s wrong? Is it my fault to be a boss? Is it wrong for me to nag? It’s for ur own good, it’s for everybody’s good. When car is not sold, how? I bleed leh cb. Any solution to this? Hard yes? Or hard no. Fire somebody? Strengthen myself by doing what? Show them attitude? Or be even nicer to them. Sen np Fj np even though sometimes make mistakes Jen coming up a bit strong like tag team with cat to fk me up like that. What can I do? I’m just human facilitating only ensuring everything goes smoothly and I get my pay. I want to pamper the next person that comes in, hope the next person will be closed to me and think in my shoes. I hope next would be better. I find this hard to get thru. My mind just non stop thinking out loud. Now is 530am, I woke up with a stomach ache and emo.